Memories Reobtaining

Rawr!

2011-03-08T20:30:00.001-08:00

I want to buy a laptop badly madly O: Rawr. *Went insane.* For your info I am a very not responsible guy that I opened 2 blog and I didn't maintain them and now as a cameraman for something I need another blog :O sorry guys (which is no one).

Notification :O

2011-01-13T20:15:00.000-08:00

There is a PC here :3 with internet~ More to come. ._.

Lucent Heart

2011-01-01T07:14:00.000-08:00

Its so borinq~ >:3 Yet another year is over, and a new one is here aqain.
4th Jan qonna leave my home already O: qood bye my lover~ (Computer)
Was lookinq forward for an online qame named Lucent Heart, currently released in Japanese version only :3 too bad I don't seem to be able to play it XD Wanna play Aika Online too but Global and US version are limited to local only D: mean I can't play it unless i create my account around US :'(
Well, but fear not! Asiasoft is currently workinq on Aika, qonna release in 2011, but who knows? Maybe it will end up like Raqnarok 2 which was suppose to release "This Summer" of 3 years aqo :\
Aika Online, yet another qame lookinq forward but unable to play, cruel life. FML :3 Buaiis all.

Blog Shut Down

2010-11-08T05:39:00.001-08:00

Since life is getting busy, I don't have much time to maintain my blog, have to shut it down for quite a time. Well not really shut it down, just leave it be, ignore it, and never post anything~

我无法忘记的一个人 (16 /02/09)

2010-10-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

    有时，很讨厌你自私自利的行为。自己不想追求，却阻挡我前进。很生气，不明白为何你终是那样不可理喻。不知是你不了解我，还是我从来没让你了解我。

    你，老爱叫我做一大堆我不想做的事，我想做的你却阻止我。为什么？为什么你总是毁我的信心，我的自尊？我总是偷偷地背着你去做我想做的事。经验丰富的你常常在事后揭穿我的“恶行”，不留情地指责我。你的关心，或许我无法明白，无法理解，我只知道，对我来说，对我来说，这是一种威胁，一种负担。我不喜欢你这种关心方式。或许我真的很幼稚，老是与你作对，令你失望，令你生气。

    你总是把每件事都想得很严重，一点点小事都能让你说的好像会带来什么大灾难似的。不过我不把那些话放在心上。无法接受你所谓的‘爱’与‘关心’。你我有不同的个性，我真不晓得该如何处理。我怎么也想不通，为何老天会把我们安排在一起，天天相处，天天争吵，为的都是一些鸡毛蒜皮的小事。

    有时，我会做错事，你骂我，责备我，我是那么地伤心，自责。看着你那寂寞的背影，我明白我们之间有一道无形的墙，一道跨不过的墙。我曾痛心，也曾失意，只因在意你对我的眼光，在意你对我的想法。
    看你那么用心尽力地维持我们的关系，再辛苦也要撑下去，我的心何尝不为你的所作所为而感到惭愧。当我察觉我的无知带给你那么大的痛苦时，我何尝不想赎罪?但我又能做什么？你总是把一切包袱背在自己身上，丝毫不让我分担，拼了命也是一个人走下去。

    如此的情景重复地在我眼前发生，我真想与你分担这些重担，一起携手走下去。你总是以我弱小为借口，不让我与你同行，只要我好好地把日子过下去，就是你最大的安慰。你的好，你的爱，你的关心，你的努力，我都看见了。原谅我的无知，好吗？你为我的付出，你对我的爱，我永远都牵挂在心。

    谢谢你，你是我这一辈子都不会忘记的人。

Breaking Heart (12/02/09)

2010-10-28T06:40:00.000-07:00

Don't look back and leave.

Don't find me again and live on.

Because I have no regrets from loving you,

take only the good memories.

I can bear it in some way.

I can stand in some way.

You should be happy if you are like this.

I become dull day by day.

Those tears will dry completely.

As time passes by.

My broken heart like a wave.

My shaken heart like a wind.

My heart vanished like smoke.

It can't be removed like a scar.

I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in.

Only dusts are piled up in my mind.

Foolish Girl. (08/02/09)

2010-10-27T04:54:00.001-07:00

Given yourself to destiny,

How foolish is that,

You don't trust yourself,

Or your soul is lost?

Foolish girl,

How much longer you want to wander,

In the streets,

By yourself?

When others just wished,

To push you down the cliff,

And see you no more?

Stop a moment and think,

Who can be trusted,

Look carefully and slowly,

You can spot the difference.

Foolish girl,

You step on the bombs again,

You need a hand,

But which would you take?

Drop into the pit of betrayed,

You have learned a thing,

You must not make these mistakes again,

My lovely foolish girl.

A Lost Trust (08/02/09)

2010-10-25T22:46:00.001-07:00

Where are your hearts,

My parents?

Where are your love,

That are once,

For our loving child.

Now I am standing here,

Alone and untrusted,

Is this what you want for me?

How can you not trust your own child,

My parents?

How can you not trust me?

You don't believe in my ability,

You don't believe in my decision,

You don't trust my words,

You don't trust my effort,

You didn't give me a child's love,

You didn't want to lose your money,

On me...

Every small mistakes I made,

You remember as deep as you could,

Every big things I have done,

You forget...

There is forgiveness in me,

I can't blame that all you saw,

Was just money in your pockets,

And that my fees are eating on it.

Who knows I will die today,

And all you will get is insurance,

And money in the end...

Can I tell you something?

It all started just because of the degree fall,

You didn't trusted me anymore,

You wanted to change my decision,

Every small acts,

To show that my decisions are all wrong,

But did you give me the chance to speak?

When every time I made a decision,

You will always come up with another,

To make me change my mind,

And in the end,

You blame it all on me,

Saying I wasn't able to make up my mind.

Who is to be blamed?

I would not dare say,

Another word anymore...

It doesn't matter Anymore.(17/01/09)

2010-10-25T05:53:00.000-07:00

If love is a labor, I'll slave 'til the end

I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand.

Thank you so much.

I would never have known love if it wasn't for you.

I would never have known of how strong love can be if it wasn't for you.

I would never have known of such happiness if it wasn't for you.

I would never have known so little and so much about myself if it wasn't for you.

Love make two person into one, not the bodies, but the soul,

a transparent link, which no one could break but only ourselves.

'I can feel what you feel. I can see what you see. I can hear what you hear.'

But what if it is not anymore?

A broken heart. Doesn't mean its the end.

You used one second to break my heart,

and I used one whole life to heal my heart.

but I love you, with all my heart.

'iluvuwamh : I love you with all my heart.'

'My heart beat for you alone. I love you too. Copy-righted to you only.'

'I will not say it to other. You make me happy. I will nurse you back to health.'

You said these words to me. I will never forgot.

You jealous of the kitty cause it get to be with me.

And now you even hide from me.

'I ignore you' you said. you say you treat me badly. So?

It is just small stuff that it is too small to separate us.

I love u. I love u so... I am mad with you, but every time I see you,

and my anger will disappear. Strange feeling. Weird and full of question mark.

Please don leave me... I will wait... I will start waiting now...

I will disappear and wait for you to find me... It is your decision now...

I hope the link between you and me will never break like the promise we made,

to each others. We will be together until the end of no time no matter what...

---With Broken Heart .xXuanxMoon

New Blog, Old Owner.

2010-10-11T06:59:00.000-07:00

Just to inform, All post in this Blog will be written in words, while another is with picture. Thanks whole lot to whoever whatever blah.
(I will slowly change the HTML code of this Blog.)

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